I got the full-time position at Goodwill!
August 2012
“Violate me
in violet times
the vilest way that you know
Ruin me
Ravage me
utterly savage me
on me no mercy bestow
- Old Song, 1944” —Violent Collaborations, Allen Ginsberg
in violet times
the vilest way that you know
Ruin me
Ravage me
utterly savage me
on me no mercy bestow
- Old Song, 1944” —Violent Collaborations, Allen Ginsberg
I can’t decide if I want to deactivate my facebook or not.
“One day, you’re 17 and you’re planning for someday. And then quietly, without you ever really noticing, someday is today. And then someday is yesterday. And this is your life.”
—
“I am a lover without a lover. I am lovely and lonely and I belong deeply to myself.”
—Warsan Shire
- everyone: you're so quiet
- me: i'm not quiet i just don't fucking like you
Listen
“Baby Jesus” Regina Spektor
it’s kinda funny how when you get older you start to enjoy the things you hated as a kid like taking naps and getting spanked
Tiny Dancer
Elton John
“Tiny Dancer” Elton John
two eggs and an avocado for breakfast; education at noon.
I love how you randomly check up on my blog<3 you're lovely.
It’s because I wuv you. <3
“A child looking at ruins grows younger
but cold
and wants to wake to a new name
I have been younger in October
than in all the months of spring
walnut and may leaves the color
of shoulders at the end of summer
a month that has been to the mountain
and become light there
the long grass lies pointing uphill
even in death for a reason
that none of us knows
and the wren laughs in the early shade now
come again shining glance in your good time
naked air late morning
my love is for lightness
of touch foot feather
the day is yet one more yellow leaf
and without turning I kiss the light
by an old well on the last of the month
gathering wild rose hips
in the sun.” —The Love of October, W.S. Merwin
but cold
and wants to wake to a new name
I have been younger in October
than in all the months of spring
walnut and may leaves the color
of shoulders at the end of summer
a month that has been to the mountain
and become light there
the long grass lies pointing uphill
even in death for a reason
that none of us knows
and the wren laughs in the early shade now
come again shining glance in your good time
naked air late morning
my love is for lightness
of touch foot feather
the day is yet one more yellow leaf
and without turning I kiss the light
by an old well on the last of the month
gathering wild rose hips
in the sun.” —The Love of October, W.S. Merwin
“What is the point of worrying oneself too much about what one could or could not have done to control the course one’s life took? Surely it is enough that the likes of you and I at least try to make our small contribution count for something true and worthy. And if some of us are prepared to sacrifice much in life in order to pursue such aspirations, surely that in itself, whatever the outcome, cause for pride and contentment.”
—Kazuo Ishiguro, The Remains of the Day
Applesauce
Animal Collective
“Applesauce” Animal Collective
are you a nice person?
I don’t know - you tell me.
“If a tree falls in a forest
& if we make our dining
room chairs out of its freight
& if we were meant to haul
it, haul that behemoth tree
the way one hauls faith,
debt, imagination, a car
from a slushed-over ditch
& if the tree is older
than we are, older than our entire
life separately or added together
& if we put the tree back
into the ground in our yard,
a Christmas come in June
& if we were to unspool gold
ribbons through its lower branches
& name these soft rememberancers
& no one, not a single
person is around to hear that” —Epithalamium, Carolina Ebeid
& if we make our dining
room chairs out of its freight
& if we were meant to haul
it, haul that behemoth tree
the way one hauls faith,
debt, imagination, a car
from a slushed-over ditch
& if the tree is older
than we are, older than our entire
life separately or added together
& if we put the tree back
into the ground in our yard,
a Christmas come in June
& if we were to unspool gold
ribbons through its lower branches
& name these soft rememberancers
& no one, not a single
person is around to hear that” —Epithalamium, Carolina Ebeid
Candles
Daughter
“Candles” Daughter
I hate your guts. post this shit.
I hate you more. Suck my dick.
TAG. YOU’RE IT. The rules are to state 10 random facts about yourself. Then, go to your ten favorite blogs and tell them that they are it
- I’m a ridiculous klutz and I can’t go through a day without slicing open a finger, stubbing my toe, or dropping my phone in a toilet.
- Music can either soothe me or make me even more anxious depending on my mood.
- Speaking of being anxious: I have severe anxiety problems about the silliest things.
- The guys (men) I’m attracted to never seem to be attracted to me in the slightest, and I’ve gotten used to this feeling.
- I’m oblivious to many people, except for the people I love.
- I love floral and I love mythology.
- I have a rapidly growing film/book collection.
- I get addicted to things and people quite easily, which can either be a good or bad thing for me.
- I sometimes lack motivation, but if it’s something I truly want, I’ll do anything to keep hold of it or procure it.
- I’m missing a part and I don’t know what it is.
I’m sorry these are so horrible. I’m rather tired and cranky.
I’m not going to tag anyone.
that's so great! i love being busy. good luck :-)
<3 d’aw thank you
So I think I may have gotten a full-time job at Goodwill. Crossing my fingers, but I’m not getting my hopes way up. (If I do get it, this means I’ll have to do school all online this year. Five hours of school a day and a full-time job? Yikes, I hope I’m strong enough to be this busy.)
“… When we have the courage to share freely with others all that we know, whenever they ask for it, we soon discover that we know a lot more than we thought. It is only by giving generously from the well of our knowledge that we discover how deep the well is.”
—H. Nouwen
“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.”
—Douglas Coupland
Fjögur PÃanó
Sigur Rós
“Fjögur píanó” Sigur Rós
You and your conditions; my only wish is to love you and for you to let me in. I just want to know what you’re thinking, even if it’s not what I want to hear.
“I have no fear of losing you, for you aren’t an object of my property, or anyone else’s. I love you as you are, without attachment, without fears, without conditions, without egoism, trying not to absorb you. I love you freely because I love your freedom, as well as mine.”
—Anthony de Mello
I am so tired of these waves of anxiety that just wash over me and consume me.
Keepsake
State Radio
“Keepsake” State Radio
“I don’t want to live, I want to love first and live incidentally.”
—Zelda Fitzgerald
Listen
I Carry Your Heart With Me (I Carry It In My Heart) E.E. Cummings, read by Heath Ledger
“He is terribly afraid of dying because he hasn’t yet lived.”
—Franz Kafka in a letter to Max Brod
“In my own worst seasons I’ve come back from the colorless world of despair by forcing myself to look hard, for a long time, at a single glorious thing: a flame of red geranium outside my bedroom window. And then another: my daughter in a yellow dress. And another: the perfect outline of a full, dark sphere behind the crescent moon. Until I learned to be in love with my life again. Like a stroke victim retraining new parts of the brain to grasp lost skills, I have taught myself joy, over and over again.”
—Barbara Kingsolver, High Tide in Tucson
I'll Be Alright
Passion Pit
“I’ll Be Alright” Passion Pit
